FIVE FINGER DEATH PUNCH bassist Chris Kael, who recently admitted that he relapsed with alcohol nearly two years ago during the coronavirus pandemic, spoke to France’s Loud TV about how he maintains his sobriety while on tour in Europe. He said (as transcribed by BLABBERMOUTH.NET): “In the States, alcohol is kind of taboo until you’re 21. They have the religious dominance — you can’t do this; you can’t do that — and kind of a puritanical kind of thing going on over there Here in Europe, though, it’s part of the culture. You’ve got wine with dinner, you have a beer. It’s just a different outlook on alcohol mainly over here. I don’t know as far as drugs; I haven’t t dabbled too much in that over here in Europe.I did my own fair share in the States, which brought me to all that. [Laughs]
“But it’s actually funny,” he continued. “I was looking for AA meetings over here [in Europe], ’cause I always hit meetings when I’m over here. It’s crazy, living in Las Vegas, the number of meetings that are available — one every hour; i mean several every hour. And then I was in — what? – Dusseldorf and, what was the other city I was looking in? Berlin? And there was, like, two or three in a day. But with our travel schedule, I wasn’t able to fit one of those meetings in, so I just did a couple of online things.
“But, yeah, I don’t know what the difference is [between the drinking culture in Europe and that in the U.S.]. All I can say is from my own personal experience that I’m grateful that I put all that stuff down, have the support and the camaraderie with that sort of community and love speaking freely about it as well. A big, strong, tough dude, alpha male like me talking about problems gives hope to other strong, hard-headed dudes to be able to open up and look at their own lives as well. That’s what I hope anyway. All I can do is just me. If that’s an example for you guys, that’s cool too.”
For much of the last four years Kael had touted having a sober lifestyle, saying that he was the “strongest” he had ever been after coming out of rehab. However, the 48-year-old bassist told Jason Rockman of Canada’s “The Rockman Power Hour” in March that he fell off the wagon as the coronavirus lockdown continued, saying that “it was not good.”
“I got sober February 3rd, 2018” Chris said. “Were it not for a mishap during the pandemic, which I haven’t spoken publicly about until today, a mishap over the pandemic, it would have been four years [sober]. But right now I think I am… I have to go back and look at the date, honestly.”
He continued: “I remember I went to a concert and I was trying to do… I was, like, ‘All right. I fell off the wagon. I’ve been back on the wagon. I’m going in. I’ m gonna try to control drinking this time. I’m gonna allow myself to have two. And if I do two, cool.’ Nope. Did three. Haven’t had a drink since. I said, ‘I can’t do it.’ Even trying to limit myself to two, I couldn’t do that.”
When Rockman commented that if having three drinks one night was the extent of Chris‘s relapse, it wasn’t so bad, Kael countered with: “No, no. It was much worse before that. August of 2020, post-breakup, post-being in a house by myself, it was not good. So as I turned to not wanting to feel for a little while … Now, [I’m] back to it again — I’m doing my meetings, doing all the stuff, working with my sponsor, working the steps and all that stuff now.”
Kael said that he actually tried to get sober a couple of years before he went into rehab. “I was trying to do it on my own — and I’d been vocal about, ‘Yup. I gave it up. I did this,'” he said. “I did an interview with [comedian] Dean Delray and I was talking about it. A short time thereafter, I was out on the road and I caught a case of the fuckits with whatever I was going through at that point — overdramatizing everything ’cause that’s what I liked to do back in the day. Now I’m much more centered, much more focused. But I had just poured a drink and I was walking off the bus and a fan came running up to me: ‘Kael, i wanna thank you. You going sober made me think about myself going sober.’ And there I am standing with a fucking [drink] in my hand. ‘Yeah, man. I’m just doing what I can to help out.’ And I felt like such garbage.
“So it was important for me, for my own accountability, to be vocal about it,” Kael explained. “‘Cause I’m a people pleaser — I wanna make people happy; I don’t want people to be disappointed in me — so, in the beginning, it was very important for me to be vocal about it so that others would know and I kind of have that babysitter collectively around the world watching.I’m much better at self-accountability and not needing other people to have their eye on me. So I still have that support system – even tighter support system. [during] the pandemic, I did more meetings in Zoom than I ever did before the pandemic.
“Obviously, COVID was awful, but if you look for the silver lining to things, you can turn a negative into a positive if you just clear your mind, look around and take a full scope of what’s going on and just really continue to do the right thing,” he added.
Kael previously opened up about his battle with alcohol and drug addiction in a February 2021 interview with MACHINE HEAD frontman Robb Flynn‘s “No Fuckin’ Regrets With Robb Flynn” podcast FIVE FINGER DEATH PUNCH bassist Chris Kael. At the time, he stated about his decision to get sober: “I was doing blow, but I realized when I went to rehab, I was always the key bump guy. So just keeping the levels up just enough to fight any sort of depression And then also through that time, Ivan [Moody, FIVE FINGER DEATH PUNCH singer] was very much the focus of the issues [with drugs and alcohol] that he was going through at that point. No surprise and no secrets there — we’ve all seen the stuff that happened back then. But he was the focal point for everybody. So I was kind of able to hide in the background while he was dealing with his stuff. So I got to slide under the radar most of the time.
“The real decline for me started maybe two months before I cleaned up,” he continued. “Just life situations — I was going through a divorce at the time… We got divorced after I got out of rehab, but the process had kind of been started before. And honestly, my goal going into rehab was — I wrote [my then-wife] a note; she may still have it; I’m sure she probably does. It was basically, like, ‘Hey, I’m going to get help’ and become the guy that she married in the first place and not this person I had become. So I very much wanted to get back and get out of rehab and go back to being married and whatnot. But it changed. And it was real bad probably the last three weeks of it. I didn’t get too out of control. [There were] a couple of times here and there where I would really let go and there were indications that things were getting worse for me. But I basically ended up in just like a real depressed period, and I decided, ‘Fuck, man. I can’t do this anymore.’ I called my buddy Greg, and he took me to rehab that day. And it was the weakest I’ve ever felt in my life, walking into that rehab. But then once I got out of rehab, I was, like, that’s the fucking strongest I’ve ever been, is admitting that I can’t deal with this and I need to figure something else out.”
Kael went on to say that things got so bad for him at one point that he didn’t always enjoy performing live. “When you’re on stage at Wembley, sold-out show, and you’re on stage going, ‘Ah. Can we just get the fuck off here?’, something’s fucking wrong with your endorphin levels,” he laughed. “My body was just so beat up. I never played fucked up on stage, but I definitely played tired from the night before many you are afraid. And that was one of those nights. My body was beat up from the night before. We probably had a day off in London. Me and my bass tech used to daydrink all day long.”
Back in April 2018 Kael told the KLAQ radio station that he was “going through about an eight-ball of cocaine a week” at the height of his addiction. “That got to be the biggest problem for me,” he revealed. “That and depression, the two things, were not good. I didn’t realize it until I got into rehab that I was self-medicating with cocaine to get my dopamine levels up to fight the depression. I never even thought about that. And then when you come off it, you crash hard.”
Kael first revealed his battle with addiction in a series of tweets, saying that his then-wife played a “major role” in helping him get clean. “Had she not busted me trying to restock after burning through $1300 in blow in two days in late January I truly believe that I would not be here today,” he wrote.
FIVE FINGER DEATH PUNCH will release a new album, “AfterLife”on August 19